I Know You Are Near

My Dear, Sweet Lord, 

This song fits exactly where my heart is tonight.  I keep thinking of all the times and moments you have found me, and saved me.  It is a beautiful love song.

Yahweh, I know you are near,
standing always at my side. 

Always.  Every moment.  In the darkest times of my life. Every time I've needed you the most.  

You guard me from the foe,
and you lead me in ways everlasting. 

You lead me always back to the Heavenly Father.  

Lord, you have searched my heart, 
and you know when I sit and when I stand. 
Your hand is upon me protecting me from death, 
keeping me from harm.

You have searched my heart and held it in your hand.  Your hands held me when death overtook me.  You embraced me, and loved me.  You hugged me, kissed me, and sent me back to my family.  You knew they needed me here more.  As much as I long to be with you more completely, you must want me here.  

Where can I run from Your love? 
If I climb to the heavens You are there; 
If I fly to the sunrise or sail beyond the sea, 
still I'd find You there.

There was a time when I ran from you.  I didn't understand that you wanted to love me.  I thought you wanted to tell me what to do, or perhaps punish me, or force me to be someone I am not.  I had no idea how well you knew me, and wanted my happiness, and to live our life together forever.    

You know my heart and its ways, 
you who formed me before I was born 
in the secret of darkness before I saw the sun 
in my mother's womb.

YOU know my heart.  You know why it does the odd things it does.  You know my fear of being weak and unable.  You know the awkward, rushing feeling like anxiety that happens when my pulse gets sketchy and the blood moves the adrenaline through my body too fast.  You know all of my failures and all of my illnesses.  You also know the many MANY ways you've healed me.  You've taken my broken heart, soul and mind and healed them.  Over and over.  You fix me again and again.

Marvelous to me are Your works; 
how profound are Your thoughts, my Lord. 
Even if I could count them, they number as the stars, 
You would still be there.

This astounds me.  With all your works and thoughts, and with all your blessings and all those you have to care about, how do I even rate a single glance?  There are so many that you love, and still you take the time to be with me!  You love ME.  You love me.  And I know you will always be there.  Standing always at my side!  You guard me from the foe, and you lead me in ways everlasting!  

Love, 

Me