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Thursday, March 20, 2014

The Carpenter

March 19th was the feast day of St. Joseph.  I just found that out today (2 days later), but it kind of makes sense to what thought has been going through my head to share with you.

So I was picturing a scene from the show "Ax Men" which depicts loggers out clearing massive trees from treacherous terrain with big machines. One could surmise that the first step in this process is to grow a tree.  Let's assume that tree is you and you have grown tall and strong and straight and desirable for building stuff.

You stand in the woods with all of your other tree-friends, until something cuts you through. You find yourself laid low, felled by a power source foreign to you, and that you can't quite fathom. You are bound in chains and dragged away.  You are aware of your branches being ripped off as you are hauled to a site with no trees left standing.  Much of the protective bark that has kept you safe your whole life is ripped off as you are unceremoniously lifted horizontally by what appears to be a giant mouth, and spit upon a giant truck bed.

At this point you may ponder where you are, but you won't be able to take it all in, as you are now speeding down a smooth stone path (known as a "highway") surrounded by vehicles large and small.  This is SO far from the home where you've spent your whole life! No more birds, no branches for them!  No family of squirrels nesting in your leaves.  Just you to the core.  Only a trunk.  No roots. No branches.

You are lifted once again, but this time off the truck and into a pile of other trunks. Silent and alone, you lay in a pile waiting to find out what comes next. You may be thinking back to the gentle rains of your youth as a sapling in that woods.  You remember how your bark used to be so thin that you were scarred by every stick that touched you.  As you grew older it got thicker, and curled with deep grooves that kept you safe from everything around you.  You remember how soft and flexible you were inside.  The strength you now posses is surprising, even to you.  And that is how you have come to this place.

The Carpenter needs you.

He lifts you into his mill, carefully so as not to damage you.  He places you on a long table with a sharp blade at one end.  He measures carefully, and begins to cut away a layer of bark and wood. All of your years of standing strong have formed a beauty inside you that you never knew was there until now.  Rings have formed. One for each hard winter, withstanding the cold and snow.  One for each lovely summer blowing gently in the warm sun and breezes. Those rings are the reminders of what has made you strong AND beautiful.  He measures again, and begins another cut.


He will use all of you.

Those first strips he cuts will provide warmth for His family and glow with the light of the fire he lights in you. He continues to slice you.  Using each slice to make strong, solid, useful things for His family.  One slice for making a crib to hold His infant son, some more slices to make a table where the family will eat.  Perhaps one day that infant son will eat there with his friends. Board by board, slice by slice, your strength and beauty is needed by the Master Craftsman for some noble purpose. All who look upon the things he has made with you will see your rings and remember your struggle and your success.  All you have weathered up until now has been leading to this moment when the Carpenter can show your strength and beauty. Big pieces and small, he will use all of you until you have nothing left to give.  

As the last bits of your bark are thrown into the fireplace to kindle a new fire, some may believe you are gone.

You are not gone. You have been beaten and stripped.  You have had the branches ripped away.  You have been sliced and broken and shared.  You have been used to uphold and support the Carpenter's family.  You have been both strong and beautiful.  You are an intimate part of the story, and you remain.  

Look around you and see all the wood.  The wood of the tables and cribs and crosses was once a tree. The tree is gone, the wood remains.


           

 

Friday, March 7, 2014

RETREAT!



I will be on retreat for the next 3 days with my Confirmation class which includes my daughter Lydia.  I'm really looking forward to this time together, but I'm a little troubled by the definition of the word "Retreat". 

 

 re·treat
riˈtrēt/
verb
  1. 1.
    (of an army) withdraw from enemy forces as a result of their superior power or after a defeat.
    "the French retreated in disarray"
    synonyms:withdrawretire, draw back, pull back/out, fall back, give way, give ground, beat a retreat, beat a hasty retreat More
noun
  1. 1.
    an act of moving back or withdrawing.
    "a speedy retreat"
    synonyms:withdrawal, pulling back More
  2. 2.
    a signal for a military force to withdraw.
    "the bugle sounded a retreat"
 

We have been describing Confirmation as a kind of graduation from boot camp.  It only STARTS your life of learning and service, it's not the end.  However, I don't see this army backing down from any power that is superior, and I KNOW there's no defeat in sight for us. Jesus already won the war.  So I guess we'll stick with the noun versions of the word.  We will be moving back and withdrawing.  We will be holed up in the Stanley Center discussing our future plans and where we are at the moment.  I believe this is the reason for a retreat as defined in #2 above.  

Perhaps our little band of soldiers needs to withdraw and assess what strengths we have and to reinforce those areas of spiritual weakness.  Perhaps we need to see where everyone in the group stands, and get them the provisions they need to become a fully functional force of good in this needy world. 

I am looking forward to having my batteries charged, and being there for whoever needs what I may have to offer.  I pray that God will bless the whole lot of us.  I pray that His Spirit will work in us and through us and around us, making us strong and helping us grow.  

Are you ready for a retreat, or are you ready to charge?  

    





Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Dust to dust

Back in the olden days, people put ashes on their heads and wore sack cloth to show their shame and sorrow over choices they had made.  It was a showing of extreme penance, an unmistakable outward sign of some inner conversion.  I wore black dress pants, but I still put on the ashes for the same reason.  I don't own any sackcloth garments, but it's not a bad Lenten idea.  Maybe next year.  The ashes are really the important thing here.

"Ash Wednesday" ashes are made of the palm fronds that have dried up from the previous year's Palm Sunday when we remember the Triumphal entry of Christ into Jerusalem.  Catholics attend Mass and receive ashes on their foreheads to remind us of so many important things we may have forgotten.  

Today I got the honor of distributing ashes on the foreheads of the folks in "our side" of the church.  What a profound experience.  As each parishioner comes forward, I put my thumb into a bowl of ashes, draw a cross on their foreheads and say, "Remember that you are dust, and to dust you will return."  They then take their turn thinking over this truth as they head back to their seat, and the next person comes forward.

Mind you, I got "dusted" before my turn to ash the others, so I am grossly aware that I originated as dust, and will thence return.  This thought both saddens and excite me.  On the one hand, it makes me feel unimportant (which is good, really, humility is vital).  On the other hand, it makes me excited for the day I will be one with everything that God looked at and declared "it is good!"

So, I'm in my spot, waiting for my people, and Harriett (my daughter) is the first one up.  I cross her head, look her in the eye, and give her my reminder, "remember, you are dust, and to dust you shall return."  My heart is about to burst.  Harriett, dearly loved child, YOU will become dust again, so make it count!  Then slowly, all my people are coming forward.  Isaac, my son, You WILL return to dust, so what will you do while you are still animated?  Lydia, you will become dust again, so what's up with that?  Luke, my beloved husband, how do I look you in the eye and tell you, and accept that one day, you will return to dust, and I hope and PRAY that I go to the dust first, because my heart couldn't take it! My friends, brothers, sisters, nieces, nephews, god kids, all of them!  Dust!

I felt a little insight as to what it might have felt like to be an Old Testament prophet.  Let's just say, I'm thankful to not be an Old Testament prophet.  I feel like I am giving them a message from God, and I don't know if they get it, or if they're just nodding, or being blessed, or what. I hope they are being blessed with the conviction that if they have something sinful in their hearts that they will confess it, repair it if they can, and stop building walls between themselves and the greatest love in existence.  The message is as clear as the cross on your forehead:

Turn away from sin and be faithful to the gospel.
        

Lent 2014 "40 Things"

Happy Ash Wednesday!  Happy 40 days of Lent to you all!

When I was trying to decide upon a good practice this Lent, I had wonderful intentions.  I will feed the hungry and clothe the naked.  I made lists and lists of great ideas. I will give up everything but rice, and pray constantly, and wear sackcloth, and ashes.

Well, I will be wearing ashes, but I realized I might be getting carried away.  I started to make a list of 40 things I would do this Lent to get closer to God.  This opened up the question, "40 things per day, or over the whole time?" So I started on lists of  40 things for each week.  Whew. I got so busy thinking of things, that I was exhausted before I even started to DO any of the items on the lists.  I came up with this list of 40 possibilities if you are looking for a list of "40 things" you can do to get closer to God this year. I made the list, you fill in YOUR 40.  

1.  Do 40 kind things for strangers.
2.  Do 40 prayerful things.
3.  Do 40 hard things.
4.  Do 40 physical exercises.
5.  Do 40 Spiritual exercises.
6.  Pray for 40 specific people.
7.  Forgive 40 things.
8.  Be purposely thankful for 40 things.
9.  Give 40 things away.
10.  Let 40 things die. (Preferably not pets.)
11.  Find 40 miraculous things around you.
12.  Write 40 letters.
13.  Write 40 prayers.
14.  Rejoice over 40 things.
15.  Learn about 40 saints.
16.  Pray 40 Our Fathers.
17.  Pray with 40 seperate people.
18.  Call 40 people to say hello.
19.  Pray for 40 special intentions.
20.  Give up 40 meals.
21.  Limit your spending to $40 per week. Track every dollar.
22.  Confess 40 sins. (Dig deep.)
23.  Encourage 40 friends in their Lenten practices.
24.  Pray for 40 priests. (Lists can be found on diocesan websites.)
25.  Pray for 40 religious sisters and/or brothers.
26.  Pray for 40 orphans.
27.  Donate to 40 causes you care about.
28.  Help 40 kids learn to read.
29.  Pray for 40 families who have a loved one in the obituaries.
30.  Thank God 40 times that you are not in the obituaries.
31.  Give up 40 TV episodes.
32.  Limit yourself to 40 texts a day.
33.  Limit yourself to 40 "selfies" for the entire season of Lent!
34.  Give up 40 beverages, and donate the money to charity.
35.  Do 40 chores for someone else.
36.  Share 40 scripture verses.
37.  Listen to 40 stories told by older people.  (Even if it's the same story over and over.)
38.  Spend 40 minutes per day in prayer.
39.  Spend 40 minutes per day in silence, listening to God do the talking.
40.  Love 40 people better.    

I heard some guy on a radio show saying that your lenten sacrifice should be a foreshadowing of death.  The more I looked over my substantial list of stuff I needed to do, I was quite certain I didn't have time for death, since I was WAY too busy getting closer to God, which is exactly the purpose of Lent. It hit me like a ton of bricks.

I AM SO BUSY GETTING CLOSER TO GOD THAT I DON'T HAVE TIME TO BE WITH GOD.

I remembered how I felt when I was on the floor without a pulse.  There was nothing there but me and God, and our love.  I wasn't DOING anything.  I wasn't planning, or donating, or writing.  I just...was.  And what I was is LOVED.

THAT's what I hope to get to this Lent.  My list is a barrier that I have created between myself and God.  I will remove this barrier piece by piece, number by number until once again there is only me and God and our Love.

Easter will rock!

Good luck removing your barriers, whatever they may be.